so, acting is over.

So my acting class is over, and I wish I could also say that so is my semester.
But its not. Technically, I still have to hand in a ton of extra credit bullshit to hand in.


But anyway, Acting being over.
I have a pit in my stomach. It's like, I never imagined feeling this way after our final performance was over. It's like the let down from a show (that you actually LIKED being in, not like West Side, ha ha). I remember feeling this way when Beauty and the Beast was over. It's like "WOAH, we've just had an a-m-a-z-i-n-g experience. Now bye."

I guess that's the way that Broadway actors feel. When the run ends.

And I guess another thing that I feel sad about is that I haven't really done a "show-show" in a very very long time.

I just haven't felt this way in so long about a group of people that I hardly know. It's weird. It's like...."can I have your number?"
Knowing that you're never gonna talk to them again, let alone see them.

I just want to be settled, with a group of people like that, for more than a few months. I'm gonna be heart-broken leaving Disney, just like I was heart-broken leaving camp, sfxp, barnstable, and the abbey (junior, NOT senior, year).
Everything I've ever loved has come to an end. And I suppose that's the way things are supposed to be. I just wish that things would fade out instead of being blown out. (I know, I'm sort of the anthithesis of Kurt Cobain right now.)


I don't know, just my feelings.
I'm seeing Alley tonight. YAY :D She's going to be away all summer, and seriously I can't believe it's been a year since we L-I-V-E-D together...



So, that's my piece. Now I'm leaving to organize my academic life.
Then S U M M E R




p.s. Saw midnight showing of Prince Caspian last night. AH-MAZE-ING.
God, I'm a loser